kissing was never akward, neither was sleeping together.
we did that so well, I guess when it all boiled down to it - I thought he was there for me more than that, but I was wrong.
He gave up on us..
now he's hanging around some 16 year old...
and I'm with someone new.
and I don't always feel very comfortable in my skin.
he doesn't talk enough.
and it really bugs me. to not know what he's thinking about..
I need some affirmation.
because I don't want another broken heart...
actually, I'm pretty sure mines still broken, and I'm just ... keepin' on with the truckin'.. for lifes sake.
it's not that I don't like mr. new.
I really really do.. he's a great person.
he told me once he worries whether he'll be able to make me happy.
I told him only I can make me happy.
but I wish things would get better..
I can't relax around him often times.
but I need some sleep..
so goodnight all.